Can I be honest? Being a mom is hard. Add homeschooling, homemaking, and wifehood to the mix and sometime it feels downright impossible. I feel the energy leaving my body, the patience dwindling from my spirit, the peace in my mind seems absent, and my whole being screams out…”Everybody stop wanting ME. I quit.” Then, my mind wanders to the infamous Proverbs 31 woman and I stop. I sit. I think. I question how she did it all.
When I feel this way, I know what I need. A sweet moment with Jesus will make all those feelings subside and I’ll remember how romantic it is to share life my best friend. I’ll remember how sweet it is to be called “mommy.” I’ll remember how joyful it is to learn with my children and how complete I feel to manage my home and serve the people I love the most.
Despite the cravings for chocolate, the desire for a romantic comedy, and the temptation to hide out in my room and act like I do not hear them, I know these things will never satisfy my soul or bring back to remembrance just how touched by God my life is.
I reach for my journal, a pen, and my Bible to lay it all at the feet of Jesus. I ink the page with all my thoughts because honestly, sometimes it’s just too much to say aloud. But I know that God reads my prayers just as much as He hears them. I can feel His presence and I feel led to write down everything I want to fulfill in these roles that I carry. I’m a visionary-type person. I believe He knows if I can see the vision, I can endure the journey.
He reminds me that I must think seasonally. Everything in this life is seasonal. The boys will grow up and it won’t always be this exhausting. It’s just a season. The boys will graduate and homeschooling will come to an end. It’s just a season. Homemaking will not include as many tasks as frequently. It’s just a season. Conversations with my husband will not always be about the rigamaroo of the daily life of parenting and homeschooling. It’s just a season.
I admit when I think about my life and my roles in a seasonal way, it really does help to bear it all. He is always right. Always true. I write out the woman, wife, mom and homemaker I’d like to me and ask for His help to do it all. I hear, After the seasons are complete, what do you want it to look like?”
That’s the call to action today, new mama, homeschooling mama, burned out mama, weary mama, holding-on-to-the-last shred-of-hope mama. God says, you are not done yet. Your season is not over yet. There is still work to do. While He will help you; you have to do the work.
As for me, I want my work to equal the promises the Bible says are available to me. I also want my work to reflect what the Bible says is possible for me.
Here’s are a few of my favorites…
- If I…train up my sons in the way they should go, even when they are old; they will not depart from it. (Proverbs 22:6)
- If I…discipline my sons, they will give me rest; they will give delight to my heart. (Proverbs 29:17)
- If I…Teach my children to obey my husband and I (and they do it) the Lord will be pleased with them. (Col. 3:20)
- If I…model my life, attitude, intentions, and actions of the Proverbs 31 woman my will children rise up and call me blessed, my husband also, and he will praise me. (Proverbs 31: 28)
I could go on an on with the promises of the Bible for me and my roles; but I trust that you see my point. Today, I’d like to share my prayer with you. It’s the woman I want to be, be it wife, mom, teacher, or homemaker. If we have the same roles and goals, feel free to print mine and cover yourself in prayer in those moments of weariness. And if not, ask God for help in writing your own. Trust me, the road is so much more bearable with Him.