Defeated- That’s how I went to bed. The house was a wreck, the kids had hit a homeschooling brick wall, no one seemed to be listening to a thing that was coming out my mouth and I had tons of deadlines creeping up with not a time in sight to get it all done. I was ready to throw out the white flag, declaring the children had won and just accept the defeat.
All week had gone this way, correction all month had been this way. I was tired and overly done. I was almost certain that I had failed the mission of motherhood. Yes, there was a war going on in my home between my kids and the mom I never thought I would become. The mom who was short fused and ready to blow.
No one likes to talk about these moments. Moments, when you want to crawl into a hole and hide till the kids, are all grown. We fear that there surely must be something wrong with us. After all, other mothers don’t deal with this.
The fact is all mothers have these moments, days, weeks and yes even months. It is completely normal. As a matter of fact, it is something that we should never feel ashamed of going through. It reminds us that we are human and that we are not perfect.
At some point, however, we learn that we will all make mistakes on this motherhood journey but that doesn’t mean that we are not a great mom. We will not do everything the same and that also doesn’t mean that we are not a great mom. It simply means that we are just like every other mom and we are learning as we go.
So to the mom who feels she is doing it all wrong…
Breathe. You are not permanently scarring your children. You are not failing them and you are not going to go down in the history books as the worst mom ever.
At the end of the day, your kids will still love you. Your house will get cleaned eventually and those pesky homeschooling concepts will be grasped by those little minds.
Cut yourself some slack realizing that there is always a light at the end of this dark tunnel in motherhood. You and your children will come out stronger because of the tunnel.
Instead of going straight to bed tonight do me a favor. Walk into the room where your kids are sleeping and just look at those sweet faces. Those little people love you and no matter what happened during the day….You are still the center of their world.